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 I don't know what I can say that has not already been said by myself or (perhaps even more eloquently) others prior to today. Walkazo was one of the closest friends I've ever had. I miss her so much, I can't even properly articulate it. Whenever I am not distracting myself with projects or hiding my feelings behind stupid jokes, the reality of what happened sinks in and I simply find myself incapable of dealing with it properly. Even now, it's hard for me to just type out the truth. I know it's not exactly healthy, and it's not like I refuse to believe what happened, but... She was so young, so full of promise, and capable of so many great things, my mind can't comprehend why she had to be taken away from us. From her family. From the world. Nothing feels the same anymore. I don't know why this is so difficult for me to come to terms with, but I can't imagine ever getting used to this sort of sinking feeling, this...inability to change the outcome. It's maddening, and focusing on it only seems to make things worse.
-In 2014, I was asked by to create a theme song for the landmark user comic, ''[http://www.userpedia.net/I_heard_you_have_a_dragon_problem I heard you have a dragon problem]'', which I gleefully accepted the responsibility for. After a series of three-way conversations between Walkazo and {{User|Gabumon}}, and a bit of a trial-and-error, I got a very good idea for what the theme song should sound like. However, for personal reasons that are irrelevant to this memory, I chose to not record and show them the final product. I thought that life would reach a place where I could show off the theme song at a later date, but...this was not the case. I have the whole song composed, and I even wrote lyrics for the piece back in early 2015, but I chose not to show it to Edo or Walkazo despite the beautiful artwork they had made, not just for me, but for the entire community. This is perhaps one of my deepest regrets. Even if it is too late, I want to amend this mistake as best as I can by fulfilling my promise and releasing the theme song this year. I am sorry I let you both down.
+In 2014, I was asked by to create a theme song for the landmark user comic, ''[http://www.userpedia.net/I_heard_you_have_a_dragon_problem I heard you have a dragon problem]'', which I gleefully accepted the responsibility for. After a series of three-way conversations between Walkazo and {{Color-user|Gabumon|blue}}, and a bit of a trial-and-error, I got a very good idea for what the theme song should sound like. However, for personal reasons that are irrelevant to this memory, I chose to not record and show them the final product. I thought that life would reach a place where I could show off the theme song at a later date, but...this was not the case. I have the whole song composed, and I even wrote lyrics for the piece back in early 2015, but I chose not to show it to Edo or Walkazo despite the beautiful artwork they had made, not just for me, but for the entire community. This is perhaps one of my deepest regrets. Even if it is too late, I want to amend this mistake as best as I can by fulfilling my promise and releasing the theme song this year. I am sorry I let you both down.
 We worked together professionally from 2008 to 2010, and had grown extremely close between 2010 and 2013; after that, my contact with her heavily wavered. I wish I had spoken to Walkazo more frequently in the last 3 years than I chose to. That's something that I felt long before her death, but life consumed much of my time and the choices I made ate up the rest of what was left, resulting in her largely being excluded. Considering everything she had ever done for me, all the times she had my back, supported me through times of personal difficulties, collaborated with me on wikis, and helped keep my forum (Xephyr) active, I feel like I have taken Walkazo's friendship for granted.