User:Neurario

Guys...

I want to express my heartfelt apologies for my actions in late June, where I hurt many users after threatening to destroy Userpedia. I also ended up condemning these users during this period of anger, ruining my relationship with many of them after this day. I did feel bad doing it, and when I finally realised what I was doing, I felt I could not come back as I had ruined my friendships with many of you, so I simply left.

I did attempt to make one apology in July, but it ended up short-lived thanks to a topic on the Xephyr board, which is not related to this wiki or Userpedia but contained many users from these sites.

I was a fool. I took many of you for granted, and I abandoned you because I felt I could never salvage what I used to have here. To this end, I will understand completely if you will refute this apology.

I feel genuinely sorry for threatening my friends like this, and I feel it's about time to set things right before I move on. I will not return to any of my duties here, at Userpedia or the chatroom, but I will sometimes be in-chat to talk.

On top of this general apology, I would like to extend a personal apology to: be friends with him after destroying him like that.
 * Uniju, whom I generally treated like crap. I wouldn't say we were friends, although we got along occasionally, but there were many times where my anger to him was unfounded. Additionally, in-chat I got away with many things he would have been punished for, due either to my stubborn-ness or what seemed like some of the community's general attitude toward him at the time. I cannot express how deeply I feel about my actions now, and if he can find it in him to forgive m, although I could never repay him for it except to be friendly, this would make me really happy.
 * Tabuuownsall132x2. We used to be a wiki couple, but after I left the wiki community it was almost impossible to get in touch. And then...I did the worst thing I could have done - after weeks of him defending me, defending my once-intact honor, I broke him by breaking up with him. It was a terrible thing to do, and I honestly did cry afterward, but I felt there was no way I would be able to
 * Master Lucario, who took things to the next level after my first apology fell apart. He was one of the more vocal players in denying me, and after what I did to them, I completely understand. I betrayed your trust. You had told me at one point before this that I was the reason you were no longer a homophobe, and this is how I repayed you. I'm sorry, and while I don't see you forgiving me, I hope you can at least see my point of view on this.
 * DarkHero Sonic/James Frontier, who received the blunt of many of my angry moods. I flamed you for often no reason, and if they were it was because of simple things. I regret my actions, and hope that in the future I will be able to control myself like a respectable human being. (This has not happened yet.)
 * FireEevee, who received most of the overreacting blunt on the day I ruined my reputation. You were a good friend, and usually I wasn't such a great friend back. I'm sorry I hurt you that day. I wish there was something I could do to make it up to you.
 * The #mariowiki Ops, and Stooben Rooben in particular. I wasn't a very good op at all. Sure I may have helped with some things, like with the whole Maria Thalia business, but I was often strict. Some said I was even mad with power, which was likely true.
 * To that end, ChaosNinji. Now, I haven't done anything to you directly, but it was from accounts of your own abuse of power that lead me to create the name I jokingly used when I was in a bad mood: ChaosNeurario. Knowing you properly, I realise you are not that way, and hope you will forgive me for making fun of your past.

I'm sure there are more people that I need to apologise to, but it's to these listed here that I owe the most to.

I hope you can all forgive me. I've been an idiot, consumed by power, when I was not ready. I was arrogant, abusive. I cannot deny that. All I ask now as that we can put the past behind us.

Thank you for yout time. ~Neurario